it used to be
back in the day
one drank to celebrate
one drank at the end
of the work day
but these days
we don’t drink
to celebrate
we drink
to drink
or i do
a lot of us do
there was that lyric..
by ben harper
some drink to remember
some drink to forget
some drink to satisfaction
some drink to regret
beautiful
beautifully said
a lot of us drink
way too much
keeps us out of touch
keeps us from progressing
keeps us from becoming
what we think we want
from ourselves
of ourselves
keeps us from being
who we already were
who we were at 23
or 18
or whenever
you felt your best
your most creative
most en route
to self-actualizing
we drink drink drink
years go by
you don’t black out
you don’t do shots
now that’s the key
don’t do shots
you realize
it’s the hard booze
that you don’t tolerate
don’t metabolize
don’t DO well
you didn’t do shots
for several years
you learned your lesson
you attended new year’s eve
sober
and liked it
you got so much done
researched things
ran the 10k
finished that book
did that course
played more guitar
got groceries
honest to god
even just got groceries
and they didn’t all expire
in your fridge
all the organic produce
that you love
cause you’re eating less
running more
then running less
you took some time off
from the booze
the bottled amigo
your body was happier
not right away
it gets confused
can you blame it?
after a few days
you went a whole week
dry
i need to go visit the folks
and dry out
is what you say
now
again
what does it take
you ask yourself
i don’t know who i think i am
sometimes
he texted me one night
recently
drunk
and there’s talk of AA
AA
my god
my god my god
how scared are you
how worried
you beat yourself up
mentally
how often
for drinking
you can dapple
with drugs
cigarettes
but essentially
you know your vice
you know
booze
is what takes you
the turning point
is the starting point
sure
the odd time
you can have
one or two
but the odd time
is increasingly odd
two or three drinks
a day
becomes eight
no shots
quickly becomes five
because you know people
you work in bars
you know people in bars
your friends are out
tonight
there’s that thing
tomorrow
there’re seasonal
celebrations
but we don’t drink
to celebrate
i don’t
i used to drink
to get away from myself
off my own back
now i drink
to be impervious
to not be affected
by others
i drink
because i like booze
i like the non-sweetness
i’m sweet enough
i joke
joke’s getting old
we’re getting older
we used to DO stuff
go to art galleries
attend functions
write and play more
the first step
the lessons learned
years ago
was to self-love
and i did that
i think
now to
accept what is
discern the necessary actions
change what you need to
what you have to
discern and gather the
wherewithal
willpower
make the change
Stunted Mind. Volume 2, Issue 8. © Stunted Mind Productions Ltd.
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